Friday, October 1, 2010

Flashback Friday

So this is really not running related, but I thought it would be fun.

I used to be fat. At least 45 pounds heavier than I am now. And I really didn't know it, and I didn't care that I was unhealthy. I was a pack-a-day smoker, and I partied. A lot. Meaning, I drank a lot of beer and made a lot of poor food choices. Honestly, no one TOLD me that I looked bad. And it took more than realizing my size 14s were tight to make a change.

So. Here are some pictures of me at my sisters wedding, about 9 years ago. I thought I was HAWT!

Look. At. The. Size. Of. My. Face.
L looks PURDY!!

Sorry about the size on these, they are not digital, I scanned them in.

What prompted this post is that I was trying on clothes today and I was struggling getting ANYTHING to fit. I am apparently too small now to wear an XS at Old Navy. Macy's doesn't carry anything in women's sizes smaller than a 4 (even in petite!) I had to buy a skirt in a girl's size today because the smallest adult size literally slid right off me. It's frustrating for me to go to the store and see only "big" sizes on the rack.

Sometimes I forget how far I've come. Sometimes I forget how hard I have worked to be where I am now. Sometimes I forget how unhappy I used to be and how happy I am now. It's easy to get into a funk, and harder to get yourself out. Sometimes you need to remember a low place in your life to realize how freaking awesome you have it now.

This post is not to meant to brag, it's more of an appreciation for who I was shaping me into the person I am now. I busted my ASS to be where I am today. I stopped drinking, stopped smoking, started eating right and I got on that freaking treadmill and I ran.

And here I am years later... still running.

Happy Feel Good Friday!!


  1. Awesome! Didn't sound like bragging at all...just a respect for the changes you've made and the work you've put in!

  2. Congratulations on changing your lifestyle and loosing all the weight AND not gaining it back on! You look amazing!!!

  3. Oh man we were sisters in fatness. I too packed an extra 50 and have wedding pics similar to yours. It's so good to be on this side of things!

  4. I completely relate to this! I used to be 50+ pounds heavier. At 5 foot nothing, it's always hard to find anything that fits right. It's funny, I used to think nothing fit because I was fat. I'm 100X happier now, but stuff still never fits. You look great now!

  5. Wow! I would have never known. I did have a chuckle at your facebook status yesterday. If we all had it so hard ...

    Congrats on making a positive change and maintaining it!

  6. Wow, those pics don't even look like you - where are the bright colors and awesome socks??? What a great transformation, congrats on the results of all your hard work.
    I have to shop in the junior section and sometimes even little girls. The bonus (I keep telling myself) is that the clothes are actually cheaper.

  7. Didn't sound like bragging but even if it did, you've earned the right! 50lbs is like two of my kid. You dropped two small people. !!

  8. It is good to remember that we are all a work in progress and size is just one part of the package. The sizes we find in stores won't change until Americans realize how much better it feels to be able to move freely without the burden of extra weight. I don't think everyone should be a toothpick at all! I think each person should live an active healthy lifestyle and in doing that they will reach a healthier weight.

    And if you want to brag about losing those extra pounds and being able to joyfully live your life, you don't have to ask anyone's permission. You earned a bit a bragging!!! Nice job!

  9. That's awesome!! Brag on--you earned it! Maybe you can resurrect that BM dress? Total hotness.

  10. Good for you! I always find you to be quite inspiring, and this just seals the deal!

  11. A W E S O M E!!!!!!!!!!

    Truly inspiring! Also, I wish I had that problem of everything being too big! lol


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