As is the norm for me, I'm typically signed up for billions of races. I have only signed up for 2 or 3 in the last 5 months.
Running has NOT been fun. Not in training. Not in racing. Not to say that I have not had fun AT a race. I just have not had fun with the whole running part.
I don't know what to do. It's weird to me to think that I have to "force" running. I mean, I only started running years ago to lose weight. At some point I've begun to tolerate it, if not actually like it. There is no liking right now. I dread training. I dread racing. And I am fairly certain that my negativity is affecting my running and making it just as bad (if not worse) than I've imagined.
- I've obviously had an actual for real injury.
- IT band isn't 100% cured, but is tolerable.
- After CIM, my ankles HURT. They feel either sprained or bruised.
- My training is down about 50% from where it's consistently been for the last 3 years.
- I have done ZERO double digit training runs since Moab. So... since February?
- Related - I bet I've done less than 10 runs that were longer than 5 or 6 miles since that same time.
- Most of my training runs are 4 miles or less. And even those 4 miles are rarely (if ever) completed without walking at some point.
- My pace is off SIGNIFICANTLY (think in the region of 2-3ish minutes per mile)
- I'm TIRED. Like all the time. It doesn't matter if I take days off from "running" or the gym. It doesn't matter if I get 8 hours of sleep. I feel like I am exhausted all the time.
- I probably AM drinking more coffee
- My diet has NOT changed in any significant way
- I have put on about 10 pounds since I was training full force for Moab. Even running more to lose those 10 pounds hasn't been a motivator.
- Skirts that didn't chafe are now chafing
- Arm sleeves that didn't chafe are now chafing
- I feel like I really want to run trails... but don't know who to run with, as I'm not very comfortable navigating them alone.
- I've thought about going back to running with that run group, but I was having a hard time keeping up BEFORE I was in this funk. I can't think of anything more depressing than driving for a half hour to be DFL in a "group" run where I'm by myself and don't really know anyone.
- Related: Same run group has a race team. I thought maybe it would be fun to apply for that. Then I saw the VERY FIRST REQUIREMENT - "Be a top performer in the sport both at the age group and overall level" So..... NEVERMIND ON THAT
- And... to add insult to injury. My running coach just sorta dropped me after Palo Duro. Just never heard from him again.
All of us have been in a funk at one time or another.... however, it's been over four months now, and I'm ready to get out. Or stop running altogether.
Suggestions? Comments? Criticism?
Closest I've come to not hating running? A brief mile or so during that trail half marathon I did last month: